Blur Blur's 21st

Happy 21st Birthday!!
I hope you enjoyed and the plan wasn't failed.
I believe you love the gifts so keep it well ya~
Hehehehhe ♡♡♡

Lost

07 Feb 2014
I lose a friend today. A very close one. I have no idea why is he feeling this way and why is he pushing us away becuz of the past? I didnt choose u as my friend becuz of ur background. I could've just treated u as a normal classmate and stop thinking of ways to pull this friendship. Its like here we are trying to save a ship but yet u chose to let it drown. Without one's effort, how does the rest of us get the strength to support this ship? I cant just let it go so all i could do now is just to give u time and get back to us just like how u used to.

Fate.

When something happened, we always blame the world. When it comes to family/friends, things wont be smooth all the times. Sometimes, I'll blame too. Why do I know you? Why did you appear in my life?
I believe that I'm not the only one who think this way. Thinking back, it's fate which bring us together. Some will stay with us till the end and some will teach us how to grow up. Friends who came but went off. They choose to abandon this friendship. Don't dislike/hate them because they are a part of your memories. It's a precious lesson that no one will face the same thing as you. One day, when you find yourself able to smile to them again, that's when you know you've grown up. When you face obstacles, don't give up, let it be a bridge that you need to cross over and things will be fine. I'm in the process of learning. Learning how to take things easy and enjoy this journey.

Hate misunderstandings.

I dun like to be misunderstood. I mean... U can ask properly and make sure tt wad u said are true and with evidence. Why must ppl say tt I steal things?! Just packing a goodie bags for the freshies and some other SL took the stuff doesn't give u a reason to raise ur voice at me becuz I'm not the one. That also doesn't give u a reason to stare at me. No, to watch my every move. I can buy things which are much better than all thise stuff with my own money. It is fucking unfair. I'm not the one but I'm actually getting all this shit for nth. This isn't the first time.

I remember when I went to S house and he said he wanted to show me the BB photo book tt his sister bought for him, he said 'dun steal hor, I know u like it a lot' it's like wtf. I can buy it myself. Why do I have to steal it from u? That's when I just put the book aside and thought 'am I this kind of person to u?'

People should stop all this nonsense. It is very unfair to ppl who didn't do anything wrong. Doesn't mean tt poorer people will steal and the rich are the only ones who can afford everything.

Someone save me pls.

For this past few months, things are going smoothly. In fact, happy and fun. With all the sem 2 awesome people I have. But this happiness just won't last. Things between the clique seems to change. Why is it that things just can't remain the same? The worse thing is, even secondary school cliques are facing problems too.

I remember someone(P) used to ask me 'Among the clique, who can u trust the most? Who will u tell ur secrets to?' And I said J. But come to think of it now, I can trust nobody. Sometimes things tt u say can be hurtful but u'll nvr realise . If words can kill, u've killed at least a hundred. Why can't u just think before u say?

Sometimes I wonder, why are u gals laughing at me? Is it my fault to grow like this? Do I want all this? NO!! Put urself into my shoes and feel how I'm feeling!! U all will nvr understand.

I HAVE THE URGE TO LEAVE THIS PLACE. I DUN WANNA BE HERE.

My dreams...

They said "happy moments passed quickly". Is tt so? For the past 17years of my life, it was like a dream. Spent time with my precious family and friends. I finally understand wad meant. There's a lot of things tt i wished to do and wished to have it. But the thing tt i need the most is TIME. It is something tt every one need it and the would be happy to have it under their control?

First, I wish to travel around the world to places like Korea, Paris, LasVegas, London and many more!! I'm always envious when my friends go overseas with their family especially when I havent experience taking a plane before... All I can do is to visit google and look at those beautiful places.

Second, I would like to buy myself some pretty dresses, shorts, shoes, shirts and bags. Isn't tt wad ppl always want? Other than tt, I would like to own an iPod. lways dreaming tt I can have a huge house waiting for me to live in and a car for me to drive when I get my license.

Third, sometimes, wouldn't it be a dream if polaroid films are free?! I can pratically take every picture using polaroid!! I can snap any picture I want and dun have to even print it out.

Last, I wish to let my parents to live a good life. They dun have to worry abt anything. I wish to open a bank account for them to buy anything they want to and I'll always deposit money for them.

But all this wont take place if I dun save up any money. So, I fall back hard to the reality and woke up from my dream. Every thing will have an end and my beautiful dream just burst. In order to fulfil my dream, I need to work hard. There is no free lunch in this world. Remember?

Mixed feelings

How am I suppose to feel right now? Happy or sad?

It's a good thing to change class every semester because if u dun really like some one in the class, u won't have to see his/her face again during the next sem. However, I'm gonna face all the same old thing again  and again... Mixing with different group of new classmates and get to know them for another 15 weeks then change class again for the next 3 years... What about those few of them who I really like hanging out with? It seems to be a good and a bad thing... But wad can I do? At least I dun have to see some of their face anymore. Those little ups and downs tt we've gone thru tgt.

Although i drag my feet to sku everyday, they're the ones who make me feel tt the modules are fun and make my life in RP happier in some ways. I think I'm gonna miss them..

Bye BURDEN CLASS!!

Another thing is... The feeling when u know tt u're gonna lose someone who's close to u... I've nvr tot of this before but the moment I knew, I was shocked and was awaked. Why is this happening? Why is every one leaving one by one? When u kept it as a secret but u just knew tt I'll find the ans myself.
What should I do?