Fear

I kept everything to myself, not because I dont trust you, it's because I'm afraid that u wont bother.
I didn't talk to u, not because I have nth to tell u, it's because I'm afraid that u are not interested.
I didn't look at u, not because I don't wanna see u, it's because I'm afraid that I cant take my eyes of u.
All of my actions are caused by my fear.
I'm thinking too negatively?
Have u ever looked at me?
Have u ever talked to me?
Have u ever trusted to me?

Hey!!
I didn't want my problem to become ur burden.
I want u to be my friend.
A friend to share all my thoughts with.
Do u know?

best regards,
Me 

Me!!:)

This is me everyday!!:)

Start of UT

It's the start of UT and as usual... I didn't study.. But it's open laptop!! Hahahaha!!! Is it still counted as test? It's really tiring and I've not been sleeping well lately due to insomnia.... One thing I really like the lesson to say is cuz there's no presentation even though it's Ang mo faci...

I really love my room now cuz I've just packed my study table and it's really neat and I've got motivation!! Heheheh!!

What do u want?!

Seriously, why do u block me on twitter? Did i do anything to u? I didnt't even complain to u tt i feel stress with u! After all ur emo tweets then u block me? I didn't even block/unfollower u cuz of this! Do u have anything against me? Talk to me face to face!! WTH... wad a 'friend'?

I'm not in a good mood... Why does things happen all in a time? Sometimes, I just feel like giving up... No motivation at all.... This isn't what i want.

Good Times :)

Stayed over at Lynette's house last night with Joey, Jin and Rui. Miss those good old days with them. Although our plan was to talk all night, they fell asleep while watching 'The walking dead'. Before sleeping, we chat and had a guitar session. We woke up at around 10+ and went for breakfast at macs. Time flies when I'm having fun. I hope to meet up with them more often :)

The worse day in RP...

I've nvr tot tt this will happen to me. It's my first time since i enter RP, or i should say, ever since I can remember anything, this is the first time i ever teared thrice a day. The reason is nth but RP!! First was in class, when i felt so useless when all of them gathered tgt to discuss about the answers during science module for the practice question. I feel it and talked to my friend about it. Nvr tot tt i will actually cry when i was telling her wad happened after I ask her wad to put in the ppt.
Was good enough to manage to meet rui and nette after school. After dinner, we went slacking. This is when I cry for the second time. I was tired and didn't want to attend school. At this point of time, stress starting occupying my mind. Why do I feel so stress when my friends are having fun and enjoying their poly life? Why is it tt every thing is just stress to me and I frown every day during lesson. When can I realy get use to the life in poly? Did i made a wrong choice goin to RP? Am I the only one with so much trouble and stress? I hope tt tml's a good day....

After so many months, I'm back blogging!!
Many things happened  recently and I've graduated from SSS, started my new poly life in RP. Made new friends in the class although there's ppl who I dun like. There's too much things I hate in this poly... Really too much.

1. Change class after every 6 months.
2. Daily grades.
3. Fixed timetable.
4. Far away from home.
5. Annoying faiclitators.
6. True colors of humans??
7. Fucking RJ, quiz and evaluation EVERYDAY!!

There's two faci who really sux to the core! OB and cognitive faci!! This freaking cognitive faci graded me C since the first lesson and show us his fucking attitude since the 2nd lesson. Hey dude!! Aren't u suppose to be more patience? We're not here to stdy ur fucking attitude so stop showing it. Don't go too far man!! If u can't do tt, then one day, u mght be facing something major. OB faci grade me a D for last week (P04) just becuz I dun really understand reinforcement theory. She insisted tt my group didn't work as a team when we did!! We know wad we're doin!! Seriosly , is this how u grade ur students? Is it my problem if u dun understand my RJ?? I'm really sick and tired of doing RJ. Does it really helps me in the future? WTF DO U WANT?!

Friends there aren't tt friendly except for a few. Those ppl I hated the most... U dun have to do it so obvious if u dun like someone.... Seriously.

Well, I have to say i really made new good friends but, we'll be separated after 6 months...
We went picnic to celebrate ChengYee's 18th birthday and camwhore at Marina Barrage. Alethea and Aisyah bought food where as I carry tt bag full of bottle drinks and even lost my way... Had lots of fun chatting and gossiping. Alethea , who always choose to walk the wrong way, chose to speak wrongly on tt day and we have to keep correcting her. ChengYee, the birthday girl, was lucky enough to have fireworks at the very last minute when we're leaving and had to bear with us, laughing at her due to her wearing "adopt me" shirt. Aisyah, who always have lots of weird questions on her mind, took lots of photos using her camera which I dun know how can she survive with her camera? It choose to take pictures when we move rather than a normal one. Finally, I took lots of UNGLAM photos of them which I always did. Overall, the picnic was successful with the gooooooood weather!! 

I have to say tt friends aren't forever. My friends used to say tt we will NEVER drift apart even if we are in different poly but... I know tt i can't cling onto the past but tt's what u guys said... Even when we're in the same poly, we drift. We have our new life, new friends and new enivonment. Eveythings freash and new. BUT I HATE POLY LIFE!! Do u know how it feel like waking up in the morning and feeling stressed to go to school? Do u know tt there's actually ppl out there whom make u feel stressed to be with? Do u know tt u used to a fast learner but u're actually nth over there? Do u feel guilty when ppl stare at u showing u a face like "hey, why are u doing nth?" Do u know the feeling when u feel extremely sian when it comes to presention which u must do it almost every fucking day? Do u know how it feels when annoying ppl keep texting and calling u evry week just to call u out? Do u know how creepy it was when someone asked u weird questions when u just known him for less than a day? DO U KNOW HOW I FEEL??? FORGET IT.. I BET U WON'T.