Why am I so easily affected?

If I didn't ask, I won't know. However, I regretted asking... It hurts so much. WG played this game in class asking the guys which girl would they kill and almost all of them said me... Am I really tt bad? Or split personality? I would really like to know the reason but it just hurt me deeply... I'm just too stupid to have placed friends in the first/second in my heart.